This Is the Week

My favorite week of the year has arrived, the week before spring term exams. It is the week of no obligations, endless cookouts, and wonderful glorious bonding time with friends. I spent the hours from 1:30 to 7:30 with my closest friends playing sweet music, talking out great huge philosophical ideas, and laughing. What a day.

Think of that feeling when you met a new sibling for the first time (or for you only-children a new cousin or your favorite toy in the world), that is the feeling I feel every time I am with these people. If you read a certain blog, then you know Claire and how she raves about certain people. Well these are the same people. Zoe & Emma (by the way never assume that because they are twins that they are one and the same, trust me a bad idea), Caellum, Raasanh, Kelley, Mike. They are all fantastic people and wonderful musicians (yes even you Claire). But that is why this week is my favorite. I get to enjoy every moment with these people.

Life throws curveballs at us. Sometimes we are confused, sometimes we see clearly. But whatever times we are in, with good friends and great company it doesn't matter.

I don't have much time left to write, but think about the times. Find your friends, find your family.

Godspeed
-T.F.

Music for Thought

Some wonderful tracks to contemplate. 

Who's Thinking About You Now by Jason Mraz: 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gyo6JOI4ELc

& 

The Temptation of Adam (awesomely dark): 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kvCeCVmJAUA 

Enjoy friends! 

As always (I only forgot 1.5 times) 

Godspeed!

-T.F. 

How

How?

In only a moment,
you've seen a lifetime.
So much, So little.
So high, so low.

But even eyes enliven a night.
A beautiful story, a spell; gorgeous.

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So how can we know,
what feeling this is,
whose life we are living,
what all of it means?

How can we feel,
this thought we have,
that notion we had,
those we know?

Every experience exaggerates
what we think we know; how?

A warning

The next one is a poem I wrote. Hope you enjoy it. That's all.

Talking

That's right, I am not doing the things I should be. Just for you. So pay attention. 

You know who you are, and you know what you love. Yes, I said love. Sometimes it's hard to know. Sometimes, you can't get what you want (cough cough). But you know what that is ok. Everything will be fine. But it is time to talk. 

I've always been a talker. People who know me understand that they must yell at time to get me to shut up. So it should come at no surprise that I always think talking things out is the best. But what else is there? So often those feelings we do not express are the most painful. No one knows our internal struggle. We all suffer everyday. I suffer. I will not share things with other people. I cannot. And somehow in those moments when I most need to stop hearing the sound of my own voice, that is when I am most alone. The times when we face our biggest fears, when everything we do challenges what we know, when all that is left is the unbearable option. Those moments are the coldest. 

And yet, you and I have hope. We need to talk. That is the hardest part, admitting that is our need. But the moments when joy shakes your whole body, the moment when you feel freest, the easiest time, come after talking. Talking it out. Whatever it may be. When life takes a turn, throws a curveball, talk. it. out. It sucks, I'll admit it. I cannot even do it most of the time. But this is not about me (right now). It's for you. 

I'm right behind you, it's what friends are for. Hakunna Matatah. It means no worries, for the rest of your days. 

If I could think straight, I'd call this something

Well, how are you? Good? Good. I'm glad. Sort of.

Anyway, currently I am blogging from a coffeeshop. What have I done with my life? I mean seriously...But as the saying goes,"" I have no idea if there is a saying that covers this but I was going to make something up. Dear lord I am tired. I have no energy. None. But there is one thing that keeps me going right now. The idea that if I do keep going I will reach my summer. A summer full a musicals, guitar, friends, fires, good company, great laughs, and baseball. That is something to look forward to.

Hold on I'm watching a hockey game.....

Ok back to what I was saying. Summer is right around the corner. I can taste it. I can feel the joy of those summer days. Those ones where I sit outside with my guitar teaching myself new chords. Hoping to learn one song by the end of the summer. I can also picture the ridiculously hot ones where I trim the hedges, mow the lawn, water the garden, and do whatever else I am required to do to earn my share of movie tickets and Orange leaf trips (if you don't know what orange leaf is, shame on you).

But my summer will lack one thing. One very very important thing; a person. That person (who knows who she is) will be off doing incredible things at the Alvin Ailey dance program, and then in Ireland exploring the great land of her forefathers. And I will be at home, wishing to spend each moment with her. But I'll be still hoping the best for her, knowing that she is exactly where she needs to be.

Away from the more depressing things of this summer. The embodiment of my summer s found here, in this song. It is everything my summer is about. Anyway, that is a goal to get to. First I have to get there. Somehow. I will see you on the other side. I promise to start writing again, eventually. I'm sure something will pop up.

Godspeed
-T.F.